pain???

One thing many Angels "suffer" with is not being able to feel pain the same way that typical people do.  I first became aware of this when Kalista was about 3 years old.  I remember putting her into the bath tub and hearing a funny clicking noise.  On further inspection I found a thumb tack all the way embedded in her heal.  She had been walking around on it all day.  I know this because under the tack was clean and the rest of her feet were not because of jumping on the trampoline. 

This is getting so much better now but some times I am reminded of it.  A while back Kalista was playing in my salon and burned her foot so badly on a iron.  It was the kind of burn that blisters, pops, and immediately blisters again.  She did tell me that it was hot and wanted some cream on it, but never once did she cry or fuss.  I think burns are the worst so I had mixed feelings about it.  I was glad that it didn't seem to bother her... and sad that it didn't seem to bother her.

As you can see it has healed really well.  It is going to be a scar.  Every time I see it I feel it tickle that place in my heart that grieves for the child I thought I was going to have before I knew I had an  Angel. 

For now I just focus on the healing.... the foot and my heart.